It's Only April and We Already Had A Roller Coaster Ride!

It moved me to type the post. Mak SMSed me a while ago, informing an uncle died of heart failure. Mak & Apak were still in kampung for the burial of a cousin, died of kidney failure. A week ago, his father-in-law (my uncle), passed away of natural cause.

And this evening, I read a newspaper on a fatal accident at Jln. Batu Kawa, causing a tragic death to an old friend's father.

I was disappointed with myself as I could not be there when my dear relatives passed away. Cousin, Junior was much much older than me, (we called him Akak Jon). Mak & I would visit his family every now and then everytime I'm back in the-best-city-I-have-ever-been-to. His father-in-law, who passed away a week before him, (Apaiwai Ilom), was as healthy as a horse until his final weeks. Never once would you see him frowned, and he always put his best smile on the face. I have felt for their loss, even though I wasn't at the funeral (my cousin's was this morning).

Shit happens, I know. But when things like these happen, it makes me anxious to think that I am miles away from my loved ones, and God knows how I feel every seconds, thinking about the what ifs... And now that I'm staying alone, in an isolated pencen town, I got demotivated a little, and spending more time counting days to be in Kuching again hihihi...

I got a little bit sentimental and emotional *speechless* but I love and care about my dear family and close friends very much even though I know I didn't tell much.

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I don't want to think about what lies ahead, so be it. But as long as I have now, I'm going to treasure everything I have and be grateful for the less in life, because it what makes me richer every single day.

I would optimize my weekends (spa, facial, massage, meronggeng, buffet, make up trial, fashion show, fashion week, dinner in Milan, brunch in Buenos Aires.......) - LIFE would be great. I promise.

That is why I purchased a return ticket (again) for the Labours' Day.