Stuff I'm Not Going To Talk About With Anybody

...but I'm scripting them here in my blog. Pathetic.It's just another day in my life, nothing extravaganza or, my today is not a bit different from yesterday. It's all becoming too common now. It's like I'm stuck in another part of the universe, and I can't figure out where. Geesh, not that I'm not thankful (God knows I am!) with what I have. My life's great, I have one hell of a job, warm surroundings and great life ahead of me - but I want to have something I'm longing for.

Moving here to Sibu to becoming "someone" I'd love for a year ago, I thought I could handle the life it demanded later. Honestly, I sill couldn't. My job is fine, but when I get home, tired and drained out, physically and mentally - I feel it in me everytime. I've missed that chunk in my lifeless life. I'd love to be around familiar faces again. The crowd who knows me best, in and out, hanging out and laughing at nano-little-things that people don't care about. I MISS ALL MY FRIENDS.

I'm plainer than a plain Jane here. Home is the next thing after school. Home is where I'll be, Friday nights, ladies nights, weekends etc. I will only be home in Kuching (the bestest nest for me), only during the holidays but dang, time is too short for everything that I've missed out. A LOT! After a long and busy day, it'd be great to just hang out over a couple of drinks or over dinner, talking about anything else than work, staying up until the wee hours - talking to friends. Or movies, shopping or window shopping, club hoppings, facial and hair treatment session, .... arghh, it hurts to mention the rest! It's like everything I have worked for turns into NADA. It's like there's an invisible power, restraining me from doing all that now.

Pathetic as it sounds, the only leisure I could afford now is Internet. But when I think of it, we can't have everything we want, can we? So, I'm just going to settle for the least. Less. "stop whining, Mel!". Ok, ok.

Current song : Hit The Floor by Linkin Park.