Unconditionally and Irrevocably In Need For You

When I flipped through my old photographs, I always stumbled upon this particular folder, in which most pictures were from my days in UiTM Shah Alam. And each picture was like 'communicating' with me; retelling the stories non-literally, over and over again. In the end, I would end up: A) laughing B) crying C) disgusted, or D) all of the above. For the reasons I'm going to include here in my post, my answer is a definite D.
I have never liked the idea of being apart from my homecity but the things that made my heart grew fonder with the city of Shah Alam was not due to its geographical factor. What I had there were the closest thing to my heart could have ever known. A lot of things had happened, and affected me greatly, physically and mentally, and thanks to these three people with whom I have went through a lot and I dare to say now, without them I would never made it this far, not only in my career, but in my life as well. I couldn't type all the stories here because that would be unfair if I miss one single moment as every little time spent with time was the most treasured valuable locked in my half empty chest (you see, it's half empty instead of half full because I'm looking forward to having you guys around again!). Whenever I feel like dissing s*it or just simply making fun of myself or fooling myself around, these three names would never fail to attend my mind. I long to be with them again when I have troubles, secrets and pains, or even in my joyous mood, but nowadays it all seem impossible because we're at different parts of the nation.

This is Alby. She was an Ugly Betty during her early years in UiTM. But she has grown beautifully throughout the years especially right after she landed herself a boyfriend. Hehe.. We were roomies in the second semester, and were housemates since then until 2004. She and I had a very unique relationship, I might say, compared to the other two d**kheads which I'm going to write about later. Unique as we had the most cold-wars since forever, but we never talked about it - we just figured out the way through our mutual respect and understanding towards each other. She used to be in the way of something I like but in the other hand, she could provide me enough space for myself to let me be just me. As critical and sometimes judgmental as she is (I've never hated you for that, dear), I love her to bits and it's aching because I rarely meet her now as she's still in Shah Alam. She knows my boyfriend quite well and her boyfriend was amongst the ones I put my respect on in UiTM. Ron must know this, B! I can talk to her regarding my relationship as we have almost the same background of problem in love. LOL. Only God knows the countless arguments and fights we have gotten ourselves into just because of a small matter. I have put them all behind me now. Geez, I really miss you, B. ;-(

This is Lloyd, the pathetic Head Librarian. Why would I say so? Ok, so everytime when I have a school break, I'll be back in Kuching. So this pathetic lad over here, will make sure that we can spend times together. I tell you how. He rings me for lunch, I pick him up from the office (remember, it's LUNCH, people), and he will ask me not to send him back to the office. That's why I call him pathetic. Hehehe. Despite that, he is amongst the most amazing creatures I have known in my entire life because he is almost as determined, strong-headed and critical as I am. However, at times we could look the good in people and we play along with the s*it around us. We can play dumb and ignore it, or at times we'll agree that we need to be "poret" about it. Beyond words. I see him regularly and we hang out once in a while, if I'm in Kuching that is. The thing I like about him is that he's confident and is down to earth. Family is his top priority. You can never go on a date with him on his so-called 'family day'. He will not call it off. One thing I would not do either. Loid, remember our conversation at Hui Sing last time? I *heart* you, dude! ;-)

Ini Cikgu Calvin. The chatterbox of the group. The nervous system of the clan. The daydreamer of the showbiz. The surrealist of the normals. And an idiot who kicks ass! LOL. It means no harm, Bin!! I've known him longer than Lloyd and Alby (we were in the same matric college).
I too, had a lot of arguments with him when we were staying together in our rented apartment (with Alby, Lloyd, Felicia and Andy). Compared to the ones I had with Alby, the ones I had with Calvin never failed to burst me into laughter when I recall each scene perfectly in my head. We used to yell at each other because of stupid matters, like spilling Ribena on the floor, cleaning certain parts of the house, or on using the extension cord correctly. He's the emotional figure here as he would slam the door shut and would never come out of that very room unless he wants to pee. I wouldn't talk to him and wouldn't take a flick to his face whenever he passed by. Menyampah time ya! Weird as they were, our truce was waaaaayyyy too BIZARRE! The fight never lasted for 24-hours. We never apologized to each other, but we were talking to each other again, like NOTHING has ever happened.

I have known his family since ages now and when he lost his beloved father last year, I was like losing someone dear to me as well. His father was one of the kindest men I know and I felt for his demise. I try to make my time to visit Calvin at his kampung every now and then, yet the time is always JEALOUS of us. The best thing about Calvin is he's very transparent and carefree. Although he likes to fiddle uneasily at times or a bit of a procrastinator (BIG TIME), he manages to pull them off and he will pay you a handsome end product. I love to be in the same group as him because he is innovative and plays up surprising ideas. YOU are YOU, Bin. Me hug you for that! ;-)

These three person left a hole in my heart when we bid farewell to each other during our final years. Whenever we were with each other, we're too fragile in our hearts that we could spill the worst fear or embarrassment of ourselves to each other. The security and the assurance whenever I am around all of you were the things I will hold close to me forever. I appreciate all the love and support you guys have poured onto me, that it hurts me badly to think of this great distance between us. I had never gave you the proper appreciation for your EVERYTHING and that's the trial in which I have sentenced myself to "death". The times we spent would never be repeated again, but I hope the love and friendship and the bond and everything that we have, will cherish in each heart until the last day of our existence.

Situation A (few days before Christmas):

X was standing next to the tv and the paper-made snowman. She was playing with a lighter with one hand, while another hand was busy with the tv. Y was eating in front of the tv. Z was in her room. W was sitting on the floor watching tv, when suddenly Mr. Snowman was caught on fire. Mr. Snowman was right there beside the tv and the extension cords.

Ending : YOU GUYS know better.

XOXO