STRAY DOG

I need a painkiller. No, a tylenol. No, morphine. Shut up, already!

That's why I hate long break - because I'll have a lot to think about, and they all made me pissed . They're too intolerable to be ignored, or should I say, I couldn't could not think of it. It affects me GREATLY.

It pissed me to the core that I thought I have done anything I could but IT is still the way it was. It HAS to change! This is wrong, I couldn't take any step further into this but I can't step out of it either. I'm so not in a dilemma, but - well, I guess I'm just being ME. Simple things (to people) is a BIG deal to me.

Am I under a false pretense? I keep asking GOD for this one thing in my prayers but (go figure the rest) . . .
What is it with me and THIS?

This. Bugs. Me. Greatly.
I feel like a living corpse because nothing I can do, I think.
I've been in and out of hell before and I'm not letting THIS to pull me down. NOT ME.
Whatever the solution is, I hope it'd be best FOR me. Not for anyody but ME.
I have to be selfish this time. I wouldn't be BROKEN anymore.

I Was Broken by Robert Pattinson
I was broken

I was tired now

I'm bound

My head is off the ground

For a long time I was so

Time will decide, but before

No one loves the nighttime at the door

[Hope she] finds things I've [deemed]

Something between the burning light and the dusty shade
Said I used to think the past was dead and gone

But I was wrong, so wrong

Whatever makes me smile makes me strong, makes you strong

And by time I'm melting into many forms

From the day that I was born

And I know that there is no place to hide

Something between the burning shade and the faded light

And I was broken for a long time

But it's over now

Said I was broken for a long time

But it's over now

Said I was broken for a long time

But it's over now

Yes you, yeah you walk these lonely streets and people stare

People stare

Now some fool just got [near]

And I do pretend

Now I'm free from all the things that saved my friends

And I was [debted] to the end

Now I know I can change the mood

Something between the burning shade and the faded light

And I was broken for a long time

But it's over now, it's over now

Mm it's over now, now, now

It's over now, it's over now.

It's over now, now, now
Said I was broken for a long time

But it's over, but it's over

But it's over, but it's over

But it's over, but it's over

But it's over now, now, now, now

But it's over, love is over

But it's over now

But it's over, love is over

But it's over now, now, nowI was broken for a long time yeah

But it's over, but it's over now yeah

Over now, it's all over, it's over now.